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My frustrations

So for about a month or 2 I can be completely fine and not have as bad bi urges. But here of late the urges are super high and really bad, I only say bad because I dont want to act on them. Here I am completely content with my life, my marriage and everything. Then bam one day I awake up and can't stop thinking about getting railed and treated...   Read Full Entry

Favorite lyrics of mine

Sunrise, Sunset
What your born with is what you get
Let your fear just pass away, then your love will fill your days

I know

I need so little, yet so much
Child's sweet laughter, women's touch
I can't say just what is real, all I know is what I feel

I know

The time it is today, and we must find out...   Read Full Entry

An update

It's been a while since my last entry over a month anyway. well i'm still in a huge battle with my feelings over my true sexuality i suffer from sexual fluidity very badly. i can be straight 29 days out of 30/31 in a month but those two or so days where i go through my bisexual stage really affect me.

I accept i am almost probably...   Read Full Entry

Male play thing ........... may be

So a guy makes contact with me through a hook up site he is interested in being more than just tied and teased he says he is game to play next weekend wants a some pain and pleasure left it to him to get back to me. Gave him a choice of me in rubber, leather, cross dressed or leave it to me.

I hope he does get back to me been a while since I...   Read Full Entry

My Thoughts

I have in the past gone to one of the adult bookstores that has a gloryhole system but the last couple of times that I have been there I have had a very uneasy feeling so have walked out without doing anything. The wife is going out of town this afternoon and I have decided that I am going to one of the two bathhouse/gyms that cater to men only...   Read Full Entry


I was driving truck over the road and I always went to adult book stores. I always went to the video booths and beat off watching porn. I went to this one place found a booth and noticed it had 2 holes and had never seen anything like that before so I just pulled my pants down and started stroking my cock that's when I got the shock as I...   Read Full Entry

I Yam What I Yam

WARNING: Mixed metaphors ahead.

The title statement was uttered decades ago by a maritime philosopher before it was hijacked, paraphrased, and turned into a song in a crappy musical. The sentiment behind the statement was the person you see is the person you get. The choice is yours to accept me or reject me. Ultimately, it states that the...   Read Full Entry

More and More....

First of all, I made a friend who is also bisexual and who I feel I can open up to about anything and everything. We have an open forum where we can talk just about anything with no fear of recrimination or embarrassment. I am totally grateful for this friendship. With that being said, he is helping me come to terms with being bisexual. Yes I...   Read Full Entry

Not a Hookup Kind of Guy

Joining the guys in their quest through the bisexual realm is not easy later in life. Letting mores become fossilized over the years doesn't exactly contribute to a robust mental outlook. Our souls having been petrified, during our would be years of experimentation, by the early AIDS crises. A crises that gave a black mark to the word...   Read Full Entry

Jumped a train and don't have any idea where it is headed

For longstanding members you may have noticed that I haven't been on much lately and it has been a long time since I have updated this blog. Well it is now time for that update. This blog stands as testimony that my life has been in turmoil for quite some time, but that turmoil has been placid compared to my present. At the beginning of...   Read Full Entry

Who Makes the Rules

I was going to respond to a forum posting on cross-dressing, but felt that my response was maybe too intense for the topic at hand. So I figured I would post it here. If people read it, fine, if not, it allowed me to get it out of my system.

Who makes up all these rules in the first place? Why should anyone care what you wear as long as you are a...   Read Full Entry

Man on Man

Often when I go to tubegalore for some masturbation material, I don't have anything specific in mind. I browse through the thumbnails until something tickles my fancy. It could be anything from MILF lesbians to transexuals to bi-bears ;) . During these sessions I'll often switch around until I settle on something to cum to. I love being bi...   Read Full Entry

Further down the rabbit hole...

It is time once again to spill the ever confusing thoughts out of my brain-space into the blog-space in an attempt to alleviate the stresses of life and the pursuit of the elusive creature called happiness.

I keep feeling I am falling backward into the closet again. Not that I need to world to know me as an out and pround bisexual man. But,...   Read Full Entry

right or wrong

Awhile ago I found this forum and it was a good thing... I lost track of things and haven't checked in for awhile - so long, in fact that I forgot my name...

I've been working on some things pertaining to who I am - and attempting to come to terms with who I really am and what I want to be... for right or wrong - I have at least come to...   Read Full Entry

New Friend

This is my first blog, so here goes. I met a guy through a mutual family friend. My friend knows of my bisexuality and is very understanding towards me because her own daughter is gay. I came out to my friend a year ago and we have had numerous conversations on the subject on where I've been and where I'm going with my sexuality. She has...   Read Full Entry

Dramatis Personae

For those who are interested in my reading list, I present the following as the entries to my literventure (literature and adventure combined?) in alphabetical order by author then title (titles with unknown authors are listed first).

The Epic of Gilgamesh
The Gnostic Gospels
The Divine Comedy by Dante Alighieri
Ethics...   Read Full Entry

Moved on a few stages...

It's been a while since I've updated this, not much else has happened until recently.

The other day I finally came out to my Dad. I don't see him very much as we live a long distance apart, but we met for a meal and I told him after when we were in the pub. He's quite conservative so I didn't know if he would take it well and...   Read Full Entry

The fools

It was the magic hour he thought. Just before dusk, enough light for the camera in her hand, just enough darkness that the occasional brush could be accidental. None were. Each touch thrilled him, bolstered his confidence. Perhaps tonight he would say something.

They walked along the river, the remaining light reflecting off its surface. From...   Read Full Entry

The day I found this site and other things :)

I have been a member here for about a week now, give or take. At first reluctant. Scared... Nervous.. All those things... It's another site I need to hide from my wife. While she knows about my bi side she's not o.k. with it. I get the feeling if she knew about me being bi prior to marriage the marriage wouldn't have happened. ...   Read Full Entry


Me: Omg I just read this and it made me sad. I don't want to let you go!! Your the best friend I've ever had!"If you love someone, don't try to be just a friend. It won't work. It will hurt, it will kill you, and it will put you in hell. If you are in love with a friend, just let him go. Or embrace the devil."...   Read Full Entry

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