Well it's back to being my unhappy self again. i thought i had found my true self and was happy but now i am back to where i was weeks ago before my 1st real time.
I mean i went out to the local gay bar i know and got chatting with this guy we left the bar got to a hotel snogging and stripping each other off and he had to go and get some... Read Full Entry
I decided to post this in the blog area, since it is extensive, and I hope people read through, think about it, then comment or add. Keep in mind, I am not bashing religion, merely explaining. I consider myself a Christian, not perfect by any stretch of the imagination, and my faith has kept me strong in very hard times. So, I would more likely... Read Full Entry
It is time once again to spill the ever confusing thoughts out of my brain-space into the blog-space in an attempt to alleviate the stresses of life and the pursuit of the elusive creature called happiness.
I keep feeling I am falling backward into the closet again. Not that I need to world to know me as an out and pround bisexual man. But,... Read Full Entry
I sometimes wonder if those who have read my blog are concerned for my mental stability. I have gone through so much and have had some very dark times in my marriage and have considered ending it all (more explanation of that later). An honest evaluation of where I am at the moment in terms of this blog would be on a plateau. We seem to be... Read Full Entry
Awhile ago I found this forum and it was a good thing... I lost track of things and haven't checked in for awhile - so long, in fact that I forgot my name...
I've been working on some things pertaining to who I am - and attempting to come to terms with who I really am and what I want to be... for right or wrong - I have at least come to... Read Full Entry
This is my first blog, so here goes. I met a guy through a mutual family friend. My friend knows of my bisexuality and is very understanding towards me because her own daughter is gay. I came out to my friend a year ago and we have had numerous conversations on the subject on where I've been and where I'm going with my sexuality. She has... Read Full Entry
For those who are interested in my reading list, I present the following as the entries to my literventure (literature and adventure combined?) in alphabetical order by author then title (titles with unknown authors are listed first).
The Epic of Gilgamesh
The Gnostic Gospels
The Divine Comedy
by Dante Alighieri
Ethics... Read Full Entry
It's been a while since I've updated this, not much else has happened until recently.
The other day I finally came out to my Dad. I don't see him very much as we live a long distance apart, but we met for a meal and I told him after when we were in the pub. He's quite conservative so I didn't know if he would take it well and... Read Full Entry
It was the magic hour he thought. Just before dusk, enough light for the camera in her hand, just enough darkness that the occasional brush could be accidental. None were. Each touch thrilled him, bolstered his confidence. Perhaps tonight he would say something.
They walked along the river, the remaining light reflecting off its surface. From... Read Full Entry
I have been a member here for about a week now, give or take. At first reluctant. Scared... Nervous.. All those things... It's another site I need to hide from my wife. While she knows about my bi side she's not o.k. with it. I get the feeling if she knew about me being bi prior to marriage the marriage wouldn't have happened. ... Read Full Entry
Me: Omg I just read this and it made me sad. I don't want to let you go!! Your the best friend I've ever had!"If you love someone, don't try to be just a friend. It won't work. It will hurt, it will kill you, and it will put you in hell. If you are in love with a friend, just let him go. Or embrace the devil."... Read Full Entry
I went to two concerts in former churches this weekend, and it was pretty spiritual...In a musical sense, not a religious one. I've been making an effort to get out more, as part of the larger effort to accept my bisexuality. It's been going really well, and the shows were great (The first night was bluegrass, and the second was a... Read Full Entry
Last weekend, I went to my best friend's wedding. She and I have been best friends for 15 years and in many ways is the only person in the world who truly understands me. While there was never anything romantic between us, I see her as a sort of soul mate, in the sense she understands me when no one else does. I was honestly thrilled to see... Read Full Entry
So I've fully accepted myself as a bisexual man, and realized that I'm even pansexual. Everyone I know is fine with that, and nobody gives me crap for it. The ones that know about him are accepting of my boyfriend (all 3 of those people) and are nice to him. Everything is hunky dory right? Nope.
I still have one more major thing about my... Read Full Entry
So yeah, I feel kinda bleh tonight, so I guess I'll write a dark entry for the evening...
You know how you can ask someone what they'd change about themselves, and you get answers like "my nose," "my eyes," "my hair," etc?
What would I change? Half of my ethnic background. Ever since I was little, I was... Read Full Entry
Why yes, I am going to exhaust every pun I possibly can.
So, I'm bored, I'm alone and I figured I'd start up a blog in case any one wants to read it and live vicariously through my adventures.
First things first, I'll restate these laws:
You agree, through your use of this service, that you will not use this Blog system to post... Read Full Entry
So things have calmed at home. Mom's pretending nothing has changed and is pushing for more therapy as if I can be fixed when my therapist is quite happy for me ironically and is keeping tabs on my coming out process. Dad is getting used to it and doesn't seem to care a whole lot. without fanfare let's get to the bulk of this... Read Full Entry
So, I recently started a summer job in an office. I'm aware that that might just be the single dullest sentence ever committed to paper but it's really having the most startling affect on me. Looking around the room all I can see is grey. Grey carpet, grey furniture, even the staff are dressed mostly in grey. A couple of the ladies... Read Full Entry
So traditional bloggers annoy me with their jean shorts and fake, think framed glasses but I want to start one to expose others to my bull shit and fuckery because I honestly believe that it is worth a read. I'll start with introductions. Hello, my name is Bobby and I have just finished out my freshman year of college. I am currently at home... Read Full Entry
So my name is Kevin obviously, I'm 26 and I've liked men for the last 10 months, I recently broke up with my girlfriend so I could explore my bisexual side. I really have not felt attracted to women in a little while, I think my brain is just on man overload for all the year I missed out on. I have not really decided weather or not this... Read Full Entry